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“Watch, Daddy!”

I spent some precious time with my granddaughter (L), son, daughter-in-law, and husband yesterday walking around a downtown neighborhood. It was a gorgeous day with sunshine and higher-than-normal temperatures. The kind of day that called for ice cream, walks, and playground playing. So we did all of the above.

The playground area we encountered wasn’t much…just a few plastic logs and big mushroom shapes to climb on. Since my beautiful granddaughter is only 2-and-a-half, I carefully helped her climb up, keeping her sweet little hand in mine the whole time. But she’s a brave little thing, and once she mastered moving from object to object, she became less and less tentative. But her hand stayed attached to mine. Neither one of us was willing to let go.

Once she had made it to the highest point (about 3 feet off the ground), she smiled and basked in the glory of the “You did it!” affirmations she heard from all of us. Then Grandma would swoop her up and twirl her around before setting her feet safely on the worn mulch padding of the little play area. And I would hear, “Again!” So we did it again and again and again. I was happy to make her happy. That’s what grandmas do.

Grandma and little L holding hands, climbing up, working her way from object to object, getting to the high point, and swooping off in swirls of giggles. Soon it wasn’t enough to just have Grandma’s undivided attention. We needed everyone to focus on her accomplishments. So the chorus of “Watch, Daddy!” sounded almost before Grandma’s swirling, twirling touch down.

“Watch, Daddy!” and then “Watch, Mama!” and then “Watch, Grandpa!”

“I’m watching, baby,” confirmed Daddy…or Mama…or Grandpa, depending on which one was being called out. But she wanted to make sure.

“Are you watching me? Are you seeing me climb high? Did you watch me flying through the air? Is your attention focused on me?”

I couldn’t help but hear my own children repeating those same words when they were young. And I’m sure I did it too. We all want others to see our accomplishments and celebrate with us. And sometimes, others are looking away, or concentrating on whatever caught their attention for a moment. Honestly, we can’t expect people to be watching us 24/7, waiting for our next big moment. But…we kind of do, don’t we?

And then I remembered. We have Someone who never looks away…not even for a moment. He sees us reach the top, He watches each step, He holds our hand, He celebrates our accomplishments and mourns with us through grief and failure.

God will never leave us or forget us. He doesn’t get distracted or need to divide His attention with someone else’s problem or issue. He can pay attention to us and everyone else all at the same time!

Parents (and grandparents) do all they can to protect, provide, affirm, and celebrate, but they are only human and can’t be everywhere at once. But God can…and does. He knows what you need before you know it…and will hold your hand as you climb higher and celebrate with you all your big and little wins. Just call out to Him.

“Watch, Daddy!”

I’m Not Like You and That’s Okay

I spent this afternoon in the company of a wonderful group of my heroes. Everyone left their capes home for the day but I recognized them anyway. They’re moms. Not just ordinary moms…but extraordinary moms. They have chosen to sacrifice paying jobs, adult conversation, daily affirmation and bathrooms cleaned by someone else so they can teach their children math, reading, geography, science, love, acceptance, loyalty, honor, exploration, patriotism…They home school their children every day. They don’t love their kids more than you do. But they have made the decision to educate their own children and it isn’t an easy one. There are no medals at the end of their day for finishing the race. They are not better parents because they home school but they have chosen a difficult, and sometimes frustrating path. I’m a home schooling mom alum and I know that what they do is often unseen and unappreciated. They probably don’t hear the accolades they deserve. Their rewards are usually big hugs and sticky kisses. Which, now that I think about it, is a pretty wonderful pay check. Thank you for allowing me to relive a few memories and make some new friends.

On to my daily dose of “giving up.”

Day 4 – Give up Comparisons

When I first started running (11 months ago), I found it tempting to look at the Facebook posts of my friends who are runners. One young friend ran every day and posted the most amazing (to me) times and distances. I would get discouraged a bit comparing my pathetic times with hers. Another guy would post something like – “Took a quick 5 mile run after dinner. Not as fast as usual, but ok.” He would show a picture of his Garmin display with a 9 minute/mile pace. Seriously? Not as fast as usual? Who does he think he is – the Roadrunner? I was struggling to finish 2 miles at 11 minutes/mile and felt pretty good about it…until then.

My second 5K run last summer was a timed race and I stood at the back of the group at the finish to review the results. I was floored by how much everyone compared themselves to each other. By this time I had learned it was silly for me to compare myself to anyone else when it came to running. I was getting out there, I was meeting my goals and I was happy with my results. Comparing my results to any other runner wasn’t going to help me get better or faster. It would only be a source of discouragement and frustration.

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I learned the “no comparison” lesson with running but it’s a never ending battle in other areas of my life. I still find myself looking at others in regards to my weight, my parenting, my choices, my teaching style, my prayer life, yada, yada, yada. Probably have some deep psychological issues of insecurity but those can wait for another post.

My point is comparing ourselves to others can only be debilitating. You’ll either judge yourself lacking compared to someone else’s success or you’ll determine you’re better than everyone else and become judgmental. Either end of the spectrum is faulty and damaging. My goal isn’t to judge myself worse or better than you…but to encourage you, build you up. Praise your successes – pray for you during your struggles – come alongside you in the good and not-so-good times.

So today I’m definitely making the decision to stop comparing myself to anyone else. I’m not going to use your accomplishments or your efforts as barometers for my own. I’m the best ME I can be and how you live and make choices doesn’t affect that fact. And the same goes for you.

Say this out loud to yourself.

I’m. The. Best. Me. Ever.

Now get out there and be amazing!

So You Think You’re Not Good Enough?

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Day Three – Packing Up My Feelings of Unworthiness

I have to admit I have a pretty healthy self-image. I don’t really struggle with feeling unworthy of love. But I know a lot of people who do – women and men. Maybe it’s because I received a lot of affirmation as a child and even now as a middle-aged adult (Hey – I’m going to live to be 110, ok?). My parents always told me they loved me, they hugged and kissed us as kids (and adults). My dad constantly told me I could do anything I put my mind to. I receive a lot of encouragement from my husband, friends and employers. They seem to have faith and trust in me, and I try to show the same to others in my circle of influence.

But maybe you don’t have that support. Why do some of us feel unworthy of love and acceptance? Maybe you didn’t have anyone show you love or tell you in ways you understood (see “Five Love Languages” by Dr. Gary Chapman). Maybe we’ve judged ourselves unworthy because of what we see on the outside, using cultural standards of beauty. We buy into a false reality when we believe what the magazine covers and cosmetic ads tell us about beauty. If we believe the romance novels and the movie plot lines, we would never feel “good enough” to be worthy of anything.

In case you don’t realize it – Your identity comes from what God has done for you and He says you are worthy. Here are a few things you need to remind yourself of…and saying them out loud helps a lot!

*I am accepted.
*I am secure.
*I am significant.
*I have value.
*I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
*I have been chosen by God.
*I am God’s friend.
*I have been bought with a price and I belong to God.
*I have direct access to the throne of grace through Jesus.
*I am born of God.
*I have been given a spirit of power, love and a sound mind.
*I am God’s workmanship.
*I am a citizen of heaven.
*I have been established, anointed and sealed by God.
*I am being transformed into Jesus’ likeness.

This whole list is in Scripture so if you want the exact references, let me know. There’s a whole bunch more too!

So – remember this. Your identity, your feelings of worth, do not come from your name, your heritage, your circumstances, your children, your job, your talents (or lack), your address, or what people say about you. God says your beauty comes not from your outward appearance but from your inner self, “the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” (1 Peter 3:4)

Oh boy – I really need to work on that gentle and quiet thing.